Today was great I spent the day buying a new sleeping bag and getting packed up for tomorrow. I had a friend’s bday thing tonight and somehow I became the deso driver which put my anxiety on edge because I’m not confident driving but hey it worked out well. The boys and I went and got steak and waffles and mucked around Glenelg for a while chatting shit and being lame and it was just heaps of fun. So my anxiety is still kicking around of course but I just know I’m going to be okay.
Yesterday was pretty bad and not because I stayed home and did nothing for once. First off we had a work meeting and even though all signs pointed to it going badly I wasn’t really prepared for how badly it went. I ended up getting into an argument about staffing with my boss and area manager which included them suggesting I transfer stores and plenty of other condescending shit. It hell through me off and while I smoothed things over later it’s still bothering me now. After that I ended up handing in my resume to noodle box haha. Then I went into the city to go to friend’s. I smoked and drank before we left for the show and somehow it like really effected me and I was pretty out of it. When we got to the show one of our friends had a anxiety attack and couldn’t go in which sucked but even worse was how that made my own anxiety skyrocket. So I go in and sure enough there she is with her new boyfriend no less. She looked at me then quickly looked away but I stared right at her, I hate how she makes me feel so much. So I spent the rest of the night disassociating and being a weird stoned mess, touché Amore and turnover were both great I just found it so hard to get into them. Lucky another one of my friends was there and I hung out with him for a bit after which got my mind of things slightly. I’m still alive today, no thanks to you bitch.
Today was good I went over my friends house real early to watch wrestling and the great balls of fire ppv was actually sick we might have got the roman reigns heel turn at last. After that I went to lunch with friend and to the library. Then work which ughhh was fine until I accidentally forgot to grab my bag before leaving and my manager had to come get it so embarrassing.
Today was pretty relaxed I ended up going to gym with friends and trying to balance out talking and getting a decent work out, I think I did okay overall. After tea I watched some horror movie called XX which is four short movies and I didn’t mind it, wasn’t necessarily scary but it had some quirky moments.
Today was great I went and got a haircut in preparation for the trip next week hoping it’s at peak sexy length by the time I leave. Then I went to the movies to see Baby Driver which was everything I wanted it to be and more I loved it so much. I think it was a date with this girl but eh it was so rushed and stuff and I’m an awkward mess and I get such mixed signals so idk at least the movie was amazing. Feeling dejected I jumped at the chance to go to town and have drinks with my favourite boys and yeah I’m feeling good from chats and laughs with them.
Today was dumb because the shift I agreed to cover yesterday was actually for Tuesday but my manager called me and made me go in and idk man. The friend that blew me off all last week apologized which is nice and I got my tickets to see baby driver this Saturday which I’m very keen for.
Today sucked because I was agitated about last night for most of it. Don’t get me wrong I had a great time but I think I might have damaged my relationship with a realgood friend and that hurts. Work also sucked as usual so busy and the person on before me did a pretty bad job of cleaning and keeping things under control. Pretty depressed but my holiday is soon at least.
Sorry this is late guys I was a mess last night haha. So yesterday I had to wake up early to make a doctors appointment to get that damn skin tag on my bag cut out. This time the doctor cut it out deep and stitched it so here’s hoping it’s truly all gone now. After that I chilled out until like 4pm when I went to a friend’s house. I smoked weed properly for the first time in ages and yeah… I think I was a bit of a mess. It’s so weird because a lot of my friends smoke all the time so they’re completely fine whereas I’m just all over the place and embarrassing. I think I just felt awkward because it was just me my friend and her boyfriend so the attention was so on me for a lot of time. To highlight just how far gone I was, I felt like I was going to pass out so I slunk out to the toilets where I was trying to pee but I was heaps light-headed so I sat down. I ended up peeing for what felt like ten minutes and I think I passed out on the toilet but when I came out and asked how long I was they were like “uhhh 2 minutes”. Not to mention that whole time I felt like I was pissing all over everything when I wasn’t. So yeah, I am just on that weak shit guys.
Today I thought I’d be doing something but I was kinda let down by a friend which sucks but I shouldn’t have expectations I guess. Instead I started watching GLOW of course because wrestling and it’s pretty good some weird editing cuts and stuff but entertaining as hell. I went to work which was quiet but every customer I did get was the fuckin worst. Then I got home and started writing something which might be a script for my first video thing hmmm maybe.
Late one this time because I got home at like 5am last night. Yesterday I didn’t do all that much during the day just walked the dog and played some more Injustice 2. At about 8pm I caught an Uber to a friend’s house where we were meant to be having pres but said pres lasted until like 12pm haha, not that I care cheaper than spending money in town. When we got to town we went to Dog and Ducks which was expensive and packed but I went with it and ended up having some fun dancing and laughing. When we left two of my friends who are a couple were arguing all the way from town until we got back home. I was waiting for them to chill out so I could say bye and leave but the tensions were high so I kinda just snuck out. All things considered though still a good night.