13/07/17

Today was great I spent the day buying a new sleeping bag and getting packed up for tomorrow. I had a friend’s bday thing tonight and somehow I became the deso driver which put my anxiety on edge because I’m not confident driving but hey it worked out well. The boys and I went and got steak and waffles and mucked around Glenelg for a while chatting shit and being lame and it was just heaps of fun. So my anxiety is still kicking around of course but I just know I’m going to be okay.

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11/07/17

Yesterday was pretty bad and not because I stayed home and did nothing for once. First off we had a work meeting and even though all signs pointed to it going badly I wasn’t really prepared for how badly it went. I ended up getting into an argument about staffing with my boss and area manager which included them suggesting I transfer stores and plenty of other condescending shit. It hell through me off and while I smoothed things over later it’s still bothering me now. After that I ended up handing in my resume to noodle box haha. Then I went into the city to go to friend’s. I smoked and drank before we left for the show and somehow it like really effected me and I was pretty out of it. When we got to the show one of our friends had a anxiety attack and couldn’t go in which sucked but even worse was how that made my own anxiety skyrocket. So I go in and sure enough there she is with her new boyfriend no less. She looked at me then quickly looked away but I stared right at her, I hate how she makes me feel so much. So I spent the rest of the night disassociating and being a weird stoned mess, touché Amore and turnover were both great I just found it so hard to get into them. Lucky another one of my friends was there and I hung out with him for a bit after which got my mind of things slightly. I’m still alive today, no thanks to you bitch.

04/07/17

Today I woke up in a bad mood but quickly got comfortable on the couch and watched Pineapple Express for the first time which cheered me up. After that I went to the gym for a bit but probably didn’t stay as long as I should have just because it was so crowded and I get anxious. When I got home there ended up being a blackout which sucked but it came back pretty quickly thank god, played Yahtzee in the meantime which was funny.

20/05/17

Writing this at 3am on my friends couch. Went out real early today to catch a mates band play an in store show at Levi’s. can’t stress the levels of social anxiety I had knowing no one else there, it went away when they played though. From there I went to the cranka which again was awkward because I was alone. Saw a couple bands then a mate joined me and we started chatting. We ended up talking heaps as it got on into night and we got dinner together at a Chinese place, still full from that actually. From there we went to enigma to watch a mate play an adtr cover set which was looooose. At that mates house now actually, kinda anxious because I can’t contact mum and dad but eh what do ya do.